Another Lost Love - Les - Sally and Peter's friend

This is a poem that I don't think ever was sent to the chap concerned so it will be funny if he ever reads it on here - or Sally and Peter for that matter!! Les was one of Peter's good mates and was on a course to learn landscape gardening so was not earning much at the time and committing to him then would have meant I'd have to try to fund us both(in my mind at the time at least) and I wasn't earning much at all back then. He'd previously left a girl who was a traffic warden (I think from memory) and she was earning much more than me - he ended up getting back with her after I was too scared of the commitment!! Worse was to come - I was Chief Bridesmaid at Sally & Peter's wedding and he was Best Man ..... and he took the traffic warden with him! I was devastated and got severely drunk at the wedding and ended up in tears!! Hope I was forgiven!!!

I lost your love and I know why

I had the chance but wouldn't try

And now, my love, you've gone away

To live without me, come what may.

I understand that you can't trust

The things I've told you so I must

Accept that you will never be

the man who wants to marry me.

Until the week that's just gone past

I thought in your thoughts I was last

So I had tried to do the same,

Refrained from mentioning your name

And locked my thoughts of you away

And hoped there'd never be that day

When they'd re-surface twice as strong

After my chance with you was gone.

Alas that day came recently.

I'm not surprised God punished me.

Too many hearts I must have hurt

By being an outrageous flirt

And dating guys who never knew

They'd never get as close as you.

And all that time you didn't know

'Cos I don't let my feelings show

And Sally's the last one I'd tell

About my private living hell.

I knew I couldn't get to you

However much I wanted to.

And now I still cannot compete.

A home you'd need and food to eat.

My wages still are pretty low

I'm not sure just how far they'd go.

If I could have two mouths to feed

Could I still cover all our needs?

I'd sell my car and pay the loan

And then an old banger I'd own.

I know a place wher we could live

And all my love to you I'd give.

But wake up Sandra - it's too late!!

All Les's love has turned to hate.

Forget the dreams, forget the plans

Sadly I must forget this man.

He has another lover now

And he won't leave her anyhow.

I had my chance - he left her then

But he will not hurt her again

And I can't blame him, not at all!

'Cos when I ran, she gave her all.

A shame my thinking wasn't right

But when I think of him each night

The pain he felt's now clear to me

When he laid there and thought of me

My punishment I'll have to take

I'll learn to live with this heartache

Too scared to give commitment then

I'll not make that mistake again

And so I say goodbye to you

The love I lost that was so true

But if you ever need someone

Make sure, my love, it's me you phone.

Now there's a turn-up for the books!! I was the one scared to commit!! Not the fella!!

That's all for today and sorry I missed yesterday!! One of those days!!

Sandra x